I've had a cane for over a year now but haven't been brave enough to use it. My vision is further deteriorating and I decided it was time to accept the cane. I have an amazing mobility instructor from Guide Dogs who has been helping me learn how to get around using the cane.
A big issue for me is not feeling like I'm in control stemming from the fact I can't see what's in front of me and what's coming toward me. I know I'm a control freak so not being able to see where I am or what's coming up terrifies me and cause me anxiety. I've also realised than to cross roads I simply hope for the best which is not something I'd advise!
Working with somebody is so beneficial, it is giving me the confidence to explore and feel comfortable using the cane. I've learnt how to cross a street, safe places to cross and to trust my ears more. I've also learnt how to use the cane for stairs which hopefully will prevent some of the bruises I have from constantly stacking it! Going up stairs isn't to hard but down is definitely a challenge with the cane and more practice is needed.
In my last session I walked down a main road near my house. I felt as though everybody was watching, of course I couldn't see them, but you get the feeling that people are staring. I was also thinking that someone who knows me could see me and I felt uneasy at the thought. Not so much that I'm embarrassed of my condition but I'm still getting my head around it. It's definitely a foreign feeling that's hard to describe unless you have experienced it. In a way the moment was like me coming out and saying 'hey I'm vision impaired'. I also made a comment about the impression I'd make, walking down the street in high heels with my Louis Vuitton handbag.. Definitely a sight to see!
I highly recommend talking to your local vision impairment organisation and getting involved in a mobility program. Guide Dogs NSW/ACT has been the most positive experience I've had on this journey. And most importantly, don't be afraid to accept help!
